Biopsy Day

December 30th- The day reality started to set in

My biopsy was not until 12:30 pm.  They had prescribed a Valium to help me cope with what was about to happen- let me say, it didn't work.
The team was the best I could ask for.  Understanding, Kind and sympathetic to me.  I needed to have two different types of Biopsies.. One on my back and the other on my stomach- that is all they told me until today- I then found out the one on my stomach included me having my breast in compression like a mammogram then after all the biopsy I would have another mammogram.

They inserted these titiam bullets in me to mark where they took samples.  I didn't' get dressed before they were instructing me to go ahead and start to call surgeons.  That was a bit of a blow- I really hoped that a human error had been made- and probably down deep I am still hoping for one.

4 hours later Jefferson loaded me in the car- we went for Sushi- mid way thru the meal, I started to hurt...the pain begins, inside and out.

The days till the Biospy

Let me say, days of waiting are the hardest.  Even under the best of circumstances.  Here I was a newlywed- about to enjoy my first Christmas married to Jefferson.  About to be on our way to Virgina to share it with his mom and brother and the ability to relax was unrealistic.  We had decided to drive so we packed the dog and our things and headed out on our two day journey.  The entire trip there we didn't even play the radio.  We talked and I even cried at times.  I do want to be strong- but I am finding the history that I have is replaying in my brain.  I'll explain that more later.  Until then I have 14 days till the biospy.  WOW

"The Mammogram"

 December 16, 2013

My Mammogram!

Let me start by saying, I did feel a lump.  I had been feeling one on my left breast for a while.  Three years ago I felt one similar on my right and it turned out to be nothing but a cyst; so I thought, this is the same.  After a while and since I now had good insurance I thought I need to go- so I called my primary doctor and got orders for a diagnostic mammogram.
I arrived at the Breast Diagnostic clinic at 7:30 am to complete paperwork by 4:30 pm I was leaving with information that scared me- in those hours I had multiple mammograms, an ultra sound and exam.  On my second ultra sound that day, when I looked at the screen I asked, if that was the spot I was feeling- she said no- that spot is not what we are concerned about- these two other areas we are!  What?  So, the spot I am feeling is NOT the problem, something else was.....WOW!
I was told we needed to schedule a biopsy.  My world started spinning- Memories of my "old" life starting playing in my head- you see, for those of you that don't know- I was married prior to this marriage to a man that fought cancer has hard as he could-until the grace of God freed him.  I broke down and cried.  The ladies there were awesome.  They are truly doing God's Work and helping people walk their difficult path.

Back to scheduling- well we were scheduled to spend our Christmas, First Christmas married, with my husband's family in Virginia.  They  told me to go ahead and go and come back on the 30th for the biopsies- yes multiple ones.. As I drove home, I cried, cried and prayed- I was not mad but thankful that God had me feel a lump to get me in to have a test...Praise GOD

The Beginning

The Beginning

As I was driving to the doctor's office I thought, maybe I should write a blog about this new journey I am on- at first my mind said why would you want to write about this horrible chapter, then I thought, why wouldn't I- so here I am- not quite a month into this "journey" starting a blog.  Right now, I don't know if I will publish this or just have it as my own diary- either way here's my story....